Shortly after writing my last post on Friday, I texted Em. saying I wanted to talk.
He quickly responds with “Uh-oh, sounds serious. What do you want to talk about?” (Side note: Funny how he can ignore my request to hang out for two days but responds to this one within 60 seconds. And if he had only responded to the first text, there would have been no need for the second.)
I told him I needed to check-in with him about some stuff.
Him: “Can you give me a summary so I don’t worry all day?”
So, upon his request, I threw it at him: “I like you, basically. And I know that’s not the deal we have so I need to figure out what to do about it.”
His response was “You’re allowed to like me! I don’t see what the problem is. If you want to do more stuff together, we can. I just don’t want a full-on relationship right now, with anyone.”
I replied that I’m not really looking for a consolation prize and I’m not asking him to give more than he wants. I told him I already know how this will end and it is with me getting hurt.
He sent back a text saying he didn’t fully understand what I meant but asked if we could talk about it in more detail. I said yes; come over tonight and we will talk.
Didn’t happen. Instead, late that night I received a passive aggressive text repeating what I said back to me: “Well, you already know how this ends and it’s with you getting hurt.”
Apparently, sometime between 4 p.m. and 11 p.m., he went from “We should talk” to “What’s the point?”
Maybe he is just sulking and thinking things over and he will reach out soon to talk; this is what happened the previous two times we were at ends. But as every hour goes by, I become less and less certain and more and more worried I’ll never hear from him. After four months, is this how it ends?
It’s… it’s just been a miserable weekend. I don’t know what to do.
